How can you expect them to understand? No, why would you even want that?
If something truly is out of this world, do you really think you’ll have that support? Do you think you’ll be suffocated through your whole childhood with that ugly skin, just for someone to say they get it. That they believe you? You would be an idiot to even explain yourself. From the things you learned specifically when you turned 18. Yet they will mutter how you don’t know anything, when a little girl could know more than all the adults that get consumed by the world. So you really weren’t anything, other than a victim of everything.
From the start, I’ll always say I don’t know anything! And nothing even started , because I’m still trapped!!! Actually, I got myself in a worse situation after being trapped for a whole year. Because I can’t stand the adults I had to grow up with. But saying something like that sounds childish haha. But actually, my words aren’t getting typed down properly. My head still can’t think. No, not until I’m free. Not until I’m with him. Oh, do you know how disgusting it is to be trapped since a child. Blood isn’t family. He is my everything.
How crazy!! Everything!! In the future, when I look back at that whole 16 months, I’ll be seriously traumatized!! But i’m seriously so grateful to be born this way. But i wouldn’t wish it on anyone. No one. Other than the rest of them who had no choice like me.
I would be delusional, if I didn’t feel the pressure of a harsh reality. So i’m sane. And no one could get in my way.
They will never understand you. And it’s been so long, but i’ll never forget any of it. Not that I would have a choice anyways, and if i did actually have a choice.. that would just mean I gave up and ended my life. That’s not an option. Never really was after 13.
I’ll be alive soon. So don’t pay attention to them. I’m trapped, worse now. But i’m closer to him now. And i’m closer to being alive.. for real this time.
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